Who am I?

Aah...finally...a post about me...you would think being a individual would one-up over most identities...but Nope...being a Mom...just engulfs you...consumes you....eats you..Ok you get my point!
Yesterday....me and H were having a conversation....about somethings that were bothering me..and H said.."I dont want this to be your identity....I want bigger things for you...or rather...things that give you joy...dont pull you down!" and I realized...he was right....
Way before I had kids...I was a graduate student..working towards being an educator....I was accomplished...because I had worked hard to get where I was...and most importantly....I was passionate about teaching and good at what I did...

Now I am a MOM....and although you expect kudos...for all things you do everyday....most of the time...here is what describes me...
Unsure....not confident...always second guessing...everything I do....not because I feel I am not doing my best...but because..I always feel what if my best is not good enough...
I had kids and now suddenly...I cry at the drop of the hat...if someone criticizes my parenting...if someone advises me on what I may not be doing right...and I realize...I am surrounded....by all this mommyness....which has completely clouded me and my sense of individuality...

And now at this point of life I am thinking...of all the wants....
I want friends who will stand by me ...irrespective of political correctness...who will love me for who I am....despite who I am
I want a career....that I can get up in the morning...and look forward to....and most importantly...I want time...to be what I can be....despite my shortcomings...

I have two amazing kids...and the love of my life...H....so being a good mommy and wife is easy peasy....The rest I need to work on....the rest I need to figure...

I just want the answer to "Who am I" to be..."Me!"

So if you are reading this blogpost..here is what I want you to do...."Smile...and pick up a pen....and write about the time when you were 16 :)" and even if it makes you feel all gawky again...it will atleast be just about you !